Written by Marissa Quinoñez.
Moving through this time often feels like there’s no movement or progress. Just one period of time flowing into another.
Out of nowhere, we look in the mirror; our skin has a different texture, and our hair carries more grey strands than you’ve ever seen! Where did the time go? What did I make of it?
This whole process seems to stand still and yet fly by without notice. One moment you’re in middle school hating the entire world, thinking, “literally, like, what the actual fuck”? And the next, you’re considering having a baby and imagining what it would be like to have a yard to enjoy, wondering what happened to all that sex you used to have four times a day, and now more like four times a month if you’re focused. When did life become so lifey?
Each day is so overwhelming and stressful, angry and tiring. The working, the kids, the screaming, the animals, the showers, the baths, the dinners, the breakfasts and lunches, and the freaking driving!
The THEs! They’re never-ending! Then to wake up and do it all over again tomorrow. Feeling the same age in an older body, constantly thinking where does the time go?
You know, that inner dialogue we all have internally? It sounds like our thoughts. Sometimes that inner spiel navigates and directs our attention and life when we’re not paying attention.
It’s constantly playing repeatedly for years, and we have no idea it’s there. Leading our lives before we can even choose to have a say; we just react. Though know this, at any moment, you can become aware and choose a different reaction. How do you want to feel in those moments, just pulling you along for the ride of YOUR life? It takes a lot of time, patience, and practice to hear the inner critic playing in the background, driving you, along with you having recurring thoughts and opinions about all this lifey shit.
When it becomes overwhelming, it’s best to take four intense belly breaths and create an intentional thought. Then, choose and design a perspective most meaningful to your heart’s desire that will handle that situation.
This is the one shot we know of to make the most out of this fucking time here and are we really going to let it slip between our fingertips like water or sand?!
That is where the time goes, slowly leaking through each moment.
How do you want to spend those moments?
If you feel your being becoming overwhelmed, take those breaths and recenter and choose the imprint you WANT to experience in the present moment. We’ve been on autopilot for far too long, and it’s time to create the experience rather than wait for life to “make” them appear or happen for us.
It is to know that we can alter our inner dialogue because we are the only ones who hear and believe it.
So, we are capable of changing the narrative. Because it is yours. It’s massive, expansive and fucking beautiful, and you have the capability and courage to change this experience to do and be anything you want. It is to realize this power, move with it, and decide that you are the creator of this one thing, you!!
You are the higher power, the divine creator in your life. We are here because we’ve all been created by a source, and we have been allowed to be that for ourselves.
Imagine what your “could have been” is, and fucking do it now.
Continue writing your story, and remember that just because it is this way right now doesn’t mean it has to continue.
You are just one page away from finding out what happens next.
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