PATINA
- 3 days ago
- 2 min read
The body shows us where we withhold ourselves.
And it is only through that narrow, distressed bridge, where the
steps are crumbling beneath you, that the way is.
But.. it already feels as though I’m about to fall through..
Maintain faith, continue moving forward with love.
Keep circling back, allowing a new shift in perspective.
I am sorry you feel lost.
I am sorry you feel alone.
I am sorry that this weight you travel with is collapsing the shoulders you stand so proud with.
How am I going to make it across with all of this?
I won’t leave it!
That’s alright. Keep progressing.
I can’t seem to take a full breath; my legs tremble.
Focus on only the single step ahead.
My under-eyes feel so heavy.
A brief moment to shut my eyes.
Perhaps…
The only way out is through.
The doors you keep closed.
The corners that are dusty.
The spaces that are avoided are what will relieve you.
The only way out is through…
Cement blocks tied to my feet I call comfort.
How am I to surrender?
Over, and over and over again.
You will find clarity through your repetition.
The fascination will diminish. You’ll loosen your fixed gaze.
Trembling steps over top of each open riser.
The mind convinces me as fear fills me, as the Tread withers away.
Watching my laces separate, “MY SHOE!” Drifts away out of sight…
Nausea sets in; my body begins to rigor.
Why do you try to escape?!
To convince me that I can not?!
We are yoked together!
For we would not know the actual value of our most significant accomplishments without reaching the depths of defeat.
Repeat the pattern?
Or to peak interest in the vertex.
Embedded within your own kimberlite.
Passersby hold an untrained eye.
The steps will inevitably crumble beneath you.
But remember that you are not tethered to this story.
..Keep circling back.
Use what you carry as a tool belt to stabilize the next closed riser, unpack the weight.
Can you find depth & expand the breath?
The path less traveled parallels one’s quintessence.
You are never without it; the subliminal visceral undercurrent is inevitable.
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