In search of a missing piece that one has no idea as to what it is and where it could be. Striving to succeed in a world full of infinite successful creations.
How do I get there?
When I want to inside, I don’t end up doing so on the outside.
Where’s the moment it’s okay for the other you to take over?
It happened so quickly...
Then starting over again.
And again.
Aaandd again.
I don’t understand on how to choose and do.
I know what I want and it’s the hardest to achieve.
Why does it just sit in my brain 24/7.
An obsession.
An ache.
A dream.
A goal!
That’s unfulfilled...
Manifest the energy into form.
Be a leader.
Provide guidance and direction.
I am supported in all areas of my life!!
I know I can do it!
It’s so hard to continuously redirect my attention to myself.
Then you think, “well don’t we all always think of ourselves continuously?”
We always believe others who surround us are judging us.
Or silently critiquing us as we pass by one another.
But this is false!
It's our own inner dialogue, or own ego, judging our own damn self.
Not them.
It’s us.
So now instead of trying to blame outside forces on stealing my attention and providing me with “I cants” and “there’s not enough times,” today I choose me. Because, what other f*cking option is there?!
I mean really.
Without me there are no other options because I’d be nonexistent.
I must begin here.
Always staying awake.
Choosing the best version of myself to feel.
And, yet I wonder why and what am I always distracting myself from? Why do I not want to be present, consciously aware, a centered being? And yet, I whole heartedly ache to be too.
There is much to figure. Living as a consciousness within a being.
Isn’t that what we all are anyway?
Just trying to make do and sense of it all.
And what the f*ck is it all anyway?
Your mind gets upset about something; that’s a blockage within.
Damnit.
Now to figure a way to get through it? Pssht.
F*cking hard.
Stay open.
Be open.
Okay I will, I guess.
Until that shit moment/vibe swings by ahhhhhgain.
Oops.
I messed up, forgot to stay open; cause that feeling dived right in there and just buried itself in the middle of my body again.
To manifest.
To create!
To bring down from the floaty universe!
This I will succeed.
&& so it is!
I’m constantly in search of exciting awakening moments. Something new and exciting must be happening somewhere and someone MUST be sharing it.
Refresh
Refresh
&& refresh again!
Nothing.
Nothing I see is satisfactory.
Why do I have to create my own diversion?
Don’t they know it’s freaking hard!
If I must.
&& I do/ will continue too; align myself with a higher vibration, to create and be.
...but create what?
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